maybe share a cig 'cause we both fools

ow,jammin' to my atmosphere. had to se some musiec site called www.lala.com, its pretty decent minus the fact i can only have like 25 songs on my playlist i think. anyways tomarrows xmas eve, im being dragged to a party i kinda' dont really want to go to -_-. but break its pretty chill so far. i have a headache from being in the houseall day so i cant realy use my bran to think of anything good to write, so ill just post another when i feel like yapping





adios.

i cant breath with out my Atmosphere

omg my moms computer is finally working so im all happy i finally signed on facebook, where i got the mega hits :) & then im thinking' lets go write on my blog since its way over do, & let me listen to atmosphere while im doing it'...so i go to imeem & wtf does myspace pop up talking about there intigrating imeem,like wth?! myspace SUCKS come onn imeem. plus i cant even get to my imeem playlist 'cause its like under construction or something. lowblow imeem!

bt anywho guess who after 3 long years got there braces off?! chaaan chaaan! ahahahaha im so happy,ive een looking in every mirror since i got them off lol. but anyways i lovee this weather even though it doesnt go good with my hair appt tomarrow. whaat what what am i doing tomarrow?! either party or grove, maan i was supposed to see The Lovely Bones but sucky groves not even playing it :-/, so ill just see whats poppin' tomarrow.....christmas in 2 weeks, break in one...OOOOWWWWEEEEEE! lol not alotta xmas spirit but anyways i feel like im just yapping away,so goodnight :-* next blog entry hopefully wont take as long as this ones

:-*

'i do believe in fairies'

heeeeey shawtys, im sitting on my bed, about to get a The Hills catch u since theres a marathony on. my weekend was gooooood/funny.Fridaay i was bored to death at home, then decided to go to the movies with my bf, we saw Twilight..sooo goood. The lady at Johnny Rockets should get fired for being a capital B-I-T-C..anyways Saturday i woke up, went to breakfast & did a little shoppy shoppy with my mom came home, then got ready & went to the grove with Mani & Dalton. it was alotta people, probably a 'grove night' anyways it was a very interesting eventful night( those there no what im talking about lmao). but yeah im doing me. lmao me & mani are talking about when we used to call destiny maria ahahahaha,i have nothing more to saay so ta ta for now agaain
:-*
a friend to strangers,stranger to friends.

not to get closer to God,but to get further from yall

hello mates,
sitting on the phone, my boyfriends yapping/yelling about the same nonsense.my thanksgiving was pretty chill, didnt eat alot buttt my bf brought me some brown stew chicken.....bomb! im doing pretty good,looking forward to christmas :) i cant even concentrate on what i want to type cause this boy keeps yelling so
ta-ta for now.

'but she got less sense than an empty perfume bottle.

heeey daddy-o', im just sitting on my bed lounging,jamming to that old drizzy drake rogers. his mainstream sucks man, but guess you gotta' fake it to make it! but my laptops working! :) its completely erased & feels brain new, i just wish it had a little camera so i can make all these FB videos like everone with their little mac computers. im just jealous. anyways i got my binder baaaaccck, see thats why i believe in karma, i dont even feel the need for cnfrontation anymore 'cause it seems karma takes care of everyone who did me dirty like a shovel lmao. but yeah my homecoming lowkey suck -_-, senior years gonna' be way better. my life is currently really good,im just chillin'. im hoping my grades are good,more reason to get the whip come x-mas time. i find life is easier when you dont take alotta' stuff too seriously. lmao me & tay were talking about our 'cocky' persona's, & its funny cause even though like arrogance is a sin, it makes you feel soooo good ahaha. like nice & cocky seems to be a good mixture if its possible? lol, i need to get me nose re-peirced maneee


peace:-*

freak these tales.

Well I'm sitting under the dryer,todays homecoming:) I guess I'd be more excited if I didn't lose my binder for the SECOND time yesterday.I believe in karma, but I returned a girls journal that she unknowingly dropped to her, shouldn't that entitle me to get my binder back? lol :( I'm trying to stay positive but I'm kinda' a nerd & schools important to me so this sucks. Anyway yesterday was SO fun, we won against Pali & we were like overly hyped & spirited & yelling lmao, after the game was the best though, me & tay tay finally got what we wanted:) I missed hanging with her :) but hope homecomings fun!

peacee:-*

i ain't trippin' on nothing, im sippin' on something

goodmorning, i dont know why im up so early. im gonna look online for some ideas of what i want to wear for homecoming, probably wont do anything this weekend, everyones weird. i guess i cankick it old school with my mom lol. im listening to 'no ceilings' pretty good so far, idk why im not really into all this gucci mane lil wayne jay money type music so i dont really fit in with the fairfax ratchets lol, but anyways im jus chilling, not really worried about anything. i don really know what to talk about, ill probably have another post later about how my day went, but for now,




peace:-*

Murs for President.

One of a kind so there's nobody like me

And I guess thats the reason that nobody likes me

Or is it that I don't like anybody else?

Can't quite figure it out so I keep to myself

Too street for the sheltered, underground fan

Too intelligent for play on your FM band

So I thought to crossover, but I left them plans

My resolve's to do me and do the best I can

And yes I am, aware that most of my fans are white

But I'm love em all, scope em, and open 'em when I write

Some may chastize, from the side, crack jokes

Say I'm not black cus I rep with white folks

MAN PLEASE!

I hear the hate in your voice when you say it

So I'ma keep makin music for whoever wants to play it

If I dont go gold, then my people say I flopped

But if I go triple platnum, I'm not Hip-Hop

So I'm damned if I do, and damned if I don't

But I got it in my heart so I'll be damned if I won't

Make my dreams come true, my team come through

Man take it how you feel it; on the real it's on you'

have a baby by me baby,be a millionaire

heey peoples, sitting on my bed eating cilantro (which is waaay better than chipotle) & making my cd for the dance me & Brianna are gonna do. i sooo dont feel like doing my history homework, ill probably just do my homework, shower, & sleeep.

November 02, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
You're feeling pretty good today, fed by the positive comments you've been getting about your appearance and your style. Build on that momentum and get ready to take a few more fashion risks. It's a great time to unleash your artistic impulses, preferably in a joint venture with someone you can relate to. So a shopping trip with a favorite friend is a great way to build your wardrobe, exercise your creativity and have fun!

even my horoscope knows of my cockyness lol

night :-*

im feeling yummy head to toe.

November 01, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
Right now, feeling good about who you are and where you are in life are getting easier and easier to do. You are appreciating the good things that are happening to you, and you are finally seeing them as blessings you deserve. This change in attitude is helping you feel more confident and more hopeful. And as your emotional health gets more and more robust, your physical health should follow. These two aspects of your life are more interconnected than you realize.

before we start the day dear, im whispering in your ear.

Good Morning - John Legend

i love this song,makes me feel so good. ahamnis snoring next to me, milo's knocked by my feet. long night for them lol. my halloween started at 10 am, my mom had a hair appt & i was thinking i was going to the grove,right by our hair shop,so i rushed to semi- put my costume on. anyways plans changed so i ended up waiting in the car for 4 hours, drove around the parkng lot a little, took a nap, called dalton & was on the phone with him for hours. i was soo stressed about what to do so he was kinda' helping me but we just ended with the final plot to just have everyone come over. the first was Brianna, we were talking about how close we used to be & its crazy cause i really see myself wanting to get back that close with her & of course Ahmani. i dont really feel like summarizing my whole night 'cause it'll probably be too much to write but here are the highlights. Everyone trynna' dougie, Chris & Quentin throwing eggs at that big group of people & us all running up the hill, Bree & Britt being mean to the little trick or treater kids that came to my door, ahmani's costume being mistaken as a tree, Dalton running from my dog Reggie,thats all i can remember right now. OH lol, i was holding Marcus's toilet paper (for tee-peeing) & this hood boy was looking at me & was like "why do you hve toilet paper" & i didnt know what to say so i just laughed, & he said "'cause your the sh*t huh?" lmaooooo, read my mind! but yeah im listening to my babby john legend :),i'll go check my facebook now

bye :-*

you cant take it back.

'& dont worry about the decievers,life will take care of them."

turning my ears into carriers of the lies & gossip

what have i become?

knowingly taking in snakes disguised with the familar faces,

i call my friends.

what have i become?

putting daggers in the hearts of those who lived to love me

what have i become?

befriending best friends who be-loved the same lips i kiss

what have i become?

loving a cheater,cheating my body out of the soft tender touch of faithfulness

what have i become.

im not finished yet, bye.

doing things that the girls dont do.

waaassssup, right now im at dest's housee, we had a great random weekend lol. we went to a concert, dont ask me whose, afterparty, then mai's bickback which ended the night perfectly. but anyways friday i did like an extreme home makeover on my room & hurt my wrist, fell asleep on the couch watchhing role models, & totally forgot dest was coming over, which she ends up coming at like 3, wakes me up but we fall back asleep, thenn at like 6:14 i woke up from a nightmare about a vampire lmao, so i decided to wake dest up, then i called dalton but kasaun answered waking them both up, so we were just all up early in the morning lol. last night i didnt get back to dests till like 230, didnt fall asleep till 4:00 'cause i was having such a great aim conversation:) & end up waking at 8:30. so im guessing the rest of my day will be spent on sleeping. but anyways i missed destiny which i know she missed me too, but shes too scared to admit. actually she kinda did, but my moms here so

peacee

its so nice running into you.

hey, today was chaotic but the weather is so beautiful. boo'd up weather,yesssaa' lol, but yeah im waiting for The Hills to come at 8:30, my brothers sleep & idk where my mother is. my yorkie, milo, keeps barking so i told him everytime he barks im gonna chase him (like h can understand me) & evertime i chase him chubby chases me. im so bored,lmao. im listening to daddy Cudi,i missed him sooo, but he has some new tunage so im catching up. anyways schools coool,lifes cool, friends bleeh, im just doing me, thats the best way to do it! idk really no what else to talk about & i have 8 mins till my show comes on, so i guess this is goodbye





g'dnight:-*

wont it be a shame to say you lost me?

good evening baby's, im sitting on my couch full dressed,waiting for my mother to take me to the grove, which is taking forever. i cant waiiiiit till i get the whip, but anyways i just felt like posting 'cause i was bored, i wonder how todays gonna turn, hopefully good, OH! i forgot to make you aware of my idol & i am so in love with her! idc if you think thats gay,shes beautiful & has the best music & i love love loveeeee her!

bye :-*

running with scissors

omg if i havent been on my blog in forever mane, i missed you, i had alot of built up emotions & its probably why ive been so severly bipolar. but anywho babys,i attend Fairfax Highschool,i love it, i kinda stick to the people i've already known,but seem to meet more everyday. my life is pretty good, been kinda edging my way away from those prone to drama, but its some times inevitable to keep it away for too long. im mostly to myself now, better way to keep my head grounded. life has been fun for me & i just expect it to get better as time progresses. i get my license in FEB!, but i expect to have the whip before than. ive been putting job apps here and there, hopefully some one comes across my resume & fall in love with it & hire me. i love the computer lab her, the computers are like under a desk thing with a screen so no ones in my business. i hate when people read when im typing on my blog. im kinda just blabbing cause im bored & feel like typing, i just miss you soooo much! lol, i should name you Billy, since my imaginary Billy seems to have left my life -_-,i miss you too. but yeah im just living life, trying to enjoy everyday, in love with FB! but i cant even sign on here :(. dude fairfax doesnt even have yahoo?! tell me thats not the dumbest thing,thats the main website people go to email & print essays. but anyways im talking to much, ill keep updating, it'd be easier if they had it for a blackberry app but until then


peace :-*

"with her rise & shine a$$"

lmfao, tay tay you crazy girl. its funny cause i woke up at like 5 in the morning, my sleeping schedule is so messed up. but anyways im up & dressed watching degrassi & waiting for my mom to get me so she can sign me up for drivers ed & take me to meet taylor cuhs. were gonna' have so much fu today i can feel it in my bones. why is it so chillyyyy these days, its fine the weatha' wont rain on our parade







mother jois came,
im outta' hereee baby :)

goodmorning America.

funny how if i had to go to school id hate waking up but now that i dont have to,i cant sleep in. life your a loco little thing with your loco little ways. ive been having the weirdest dreams lately, im scared to go back to sleep. OH! i let my notebook at cafe aroma,with all my little poems :(. my horoscope is good today, says stuff about cleaning out my emotional closet, thats too draining for me cause lord knows i have lots of emotions in there,ill probably do it inch by inch...maybe. anyways im should probably try to go to sleep now, its too early for my brain to be flowing.






peace up.

pinkberry fo' the soul

sheesh,summer school is over! i pulled a B ( yay me) & my mother said she'll sign me up for drivers ed as a reward meaning i should bein by next week, whoopy, my brothers already looking for m car, double whoopy. tay tay hit me up with the plots for this weekend & we are getting it crackin' lmao, tripple whoopy, dbro is hitting me with the mega simpage tonight, quadrupple whoopy. ill stop now cause i dont think i spelld that right & i dont know what comes after lmao.

"A great love-perfect love- is an illusion.

it is the golden fable of which we all dream.

in ordinary life, it doesnt happen; in ordinary life, one must

be content with less."

peace & adios

jesus would be ashamed of you.

my weekend was so great, ive made the unmad mad & the mad unmad. lifes a crazy game & im a little loco game piece












adios

stacys gotta' gun

what is up? life seems to hectic, like time is going toooo fast. summer schools about to end, i need to get my permit & a car lol, & a job! a billion dollars so my motha' cant tell me nothing!

August 06, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
You're not quite sure what to do, but you have to decide quickly. Should you be good, follow all the rules and impress your bosses with your incredible ability to follow orders to the letter? Or should you to take charge of a tricky situation with an innovative, ingenious new plan that no one's ever thought of -- because it doesn't exactly follow protocol. Better make up your mind fast.



fast,fast,fast.

smooth surrender

what is up? my weekend was great, did the same thing i do every other weekend, went to the grove with dbro, tay, marcus, brianna, & chris. its crazy like im at the grove & pan never get old to me like i love it,love it,love it, loveee it. i dont really know what else to say, ive been in my room alllll day with taylor watching movies while scrappy humped my arm. fun. lol but yeah im about to go look up the eminem/ mariah thing, see if she had anything smart to say.








peace up

fightin' just a little bit, just a little bit more

oh yes, i kneeeeeeeewwwww it! i told you guys eminem was gonnaa' get all up in that. & he came back a million fazillion bizillion times harder, thats my baby. i love him so much like if i could have his personality, oww! but yeah this was the best video about it


& the song :)



omg,isnt that beautiful
TEAM EMINEM! lmao

ive been abusing my substance.

hey guys,i scraped my knees sooo bad & i just put alcohol & neosporin on them & its burning so bad at this very second as im typing this sentence. i know that lacks importance to you,but i just needed to let you know lol. my lifes' pretty good i feel like if you slow down every know & then, you have the time to think & really take in everything going for you in your life. i personally feel i have a lot going for me, good family, boyfriend, friends, & head on my shoulders (sometimes lol). i thinks 'the gods' that are watching me, are trying to let me know its time to grow up & do stuff with me. ive been writing poetry again, & i love it. im just sitting back & loving life, lets see how much longer this lasts.





now,is that so hard?

your my bestfriend,thanks for listening.

i was reading my def poetry jam book & one of the poets (Suheir Hammad) wrote a greaaaat poem called 'on the brink' or something of that nature lol. but yeah it was based on this peace protester named Rachel Corrie, its crazy how confused i was when i first read it, but like the fourth time i read it i started to get it. dudee this lady was a peace protester like i said & she was like gaurding a house cause like the palestinian soldiers were trying to bulldoze it so they can like hide bombs there or something. its crazy cause theres a picture of her clearly in front of the bulldozer & the next picture shes crushed on the ground. tell me thats not the most horrible thing ever. you can look up the pictures here www.electronicintifada. org

'something like ten Palestinians have been killed since

yesterday,when a Caterpillar bulldozer driven

by a man demolished the home that was her body.

if anyone knows her family,please relay

to them my grief & my sorry.'

rest in paradise Rachel Corrie

bye :-*

just hold me & pretend that you've known me forever

hey guys, i haveent beeen on for awhile. i actually wanted to make an entry about eminems comeback & how much mariah carey is a douche & nick cannons obvious retardedness for saying 'his wifes new video has nothing to do with eminem' when its so obvious. but i dont feel like talking about that. schools cool,i feel like im panicing cause i can feel school coming back so fast but its fine, the quckier it comes the quicker it goes. people think im stupid for wanting to be 18 so badly cause of the 'responsiblities' but yeah idk,i just gotta keep doing my job in school & get my gradess so i can kanye west 'you cant tell me nothing'.

oh i got a new doggie,hes a yorkie & his name is scrappy, him & chubs get along well ,the both slept in my bed last night. i woke up at like 3;20 to some size varied poop, so i guess they not only sleep together but have their bual movments together. anyways there sitting on my bed watching me type this.

but yeah,dont really have much more to talk about,ill catch you crazy cats later

'i would take you with me too

i know your family still mourns

i know your fans still cry

but they muct now that you' a real star

& real stars belong to the sky.'

adios :-*

you were gone before i found you

what is up? today is destinys birthday,'i donnntt want no cake on my birthday' lol, anywho's summer schools blah,seems like the days are going to fast. i dont even know why i wasted time making this entry cause i have not a beava' dam thing interesting to say







& the turn table keeps on turnin' & turnin' nothing caan f*ck with the way it goes around'
holllaaaaaaaa'

mansion with a panoramic view for those who ant get to the top.

hey, first week of summer school is over,the most emotional week ever. were half way through '09,thats crazy, in a year & a half ill be graduating. time flies by man. this weekend was cool,dests bickback,fun.went swimming today with my homies,fun. i love my bf, fun. ahmani keeps talking, fun. summer school tomarrow,fun.







im outta' here

i'd never do that to you,atleast purposely

dude,i love poetry but omg tell me this is not the most annoying poem ever?!







suck.

beautiful is how we know ya' though

summa' school kinda' sucks.

July 06, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
You're the most sensual sign out there, and you know it. So when you become aware that you're especially 'in the mood,' (like you'll be when you wake up this morning) there's just not going to be any stopping you -- and no stopping your partner from giggling in delighted anticipation. In the meantime, get through the day and impress everyone with how meticulous you're being. There's no question you'll enjoy the evening.

my horoscope today kinda' sucks

The moon is full, you can't fake that light

No room to move, nah the space got tight

don't need no knife here, we break up fights

Put your good shoes on, get your make-up right

And the ladies in the pla-pla-place so fly

Make you want to go home and wake up your wife

And I like it right, could never hate my life

In fact I'm quite excited, I get to play tonight

atmosphere doesnt.

night :-*

im bettter of alone

i hate arguing & going to sleep mad 'cause i swear when you wake up it feels 10x's worse. well he made me feel good this morning so this is for him






:-*

little older,little wiser

woke up quick,at about noon just thought that i had to leave compton soon? lol my yesterday was great, my last night was partially annoying. we got the chubster groomed & he has a little mohawk,so cute. hes just sitting at the edge of my couch watching me type. thats love right there. im just now realizing that in one day, ill go back to waking up early. omg if that doesnt suck. but yeah i have this great def poetry book, cause im an addict & it has great work. let me spit a little something fo' you.

'even now lover as we lay

in amazement & if baby

as you say my skin is the color of sun warmed

sand then you're my moonless night

and we the beach wet tidal

all that good ssshhhhh

wet yet as we lay'

-suheir

beautiful,& i love this song i swear it feels like summer

Use Somebody - Kings Of Leon

no enemies that your aware of?

"there just usin' these record labels

to do it.

takin' our heartfelt demos

putting us in limos

tryin' to f*ck up divine direction

but

young black men have been trained

to chase money and

pu**y

so we fall

victim to our own erection"

-black ice

run to the sun & neva' come back

all's well in the neighborhood,i have to add this video,' cause im kinda feeling its message.







man,why cant life always be this easy

serves her right

i feel the need to say alot since i seem to only dwell on negativity surronding me,which id like to expand out to our generation. our generation sucks,were run by teen clubs & parties that seem to get shot or shut down. girls run around hoeing & boys doing the same but only seem to get more respect from his peers. i hate the terms 'baddies' & 'oh im the baddest b' & why girls thing thats just the best thing in life. its so tacky. i hate how everythings so over rated & people are so caught up in doing the new thing thats 'in'. in contrast i hate how some less experienced people seem to think there so holy & pure & that people are under them just because things dont come as easy to them as it would to others who do it. i hate how you cant branch out to more than one friend, without the drama tearing up the circle of friends you created & i hate that you cant just forgive someone & forget that one,permanately. i hate how people seem to always justify things so thats its not really anyones fault, but a mistake. i hate that we cant stand up & be the people we know we want to be & i hate that im one of these people.



bye

original flava'

heeeeey guys, today is sunday its 2:21 & Juno's on & my homies are outside swimming. my blackberry's frozen,my mom went to target & the grocery store so my kitchens getting a re-up. too bad i wont be home for like,the rest of the week. i swear we switch houses like every dos days. tomarrow were going up to fairfax, i hope my homies get in 'cause thats when were getting things majaa' cracking lol. more than we already have. anyways dests' having a pool party/bickback, & my house like next week, omg were gonna' be stunting. were soo young these are our fun years, & thats what im gonna do. people make everything so overrated,but us, were gangstaa's
anyways im just babbling on, i think im gonna' go outside now & take a little dip with my homies



were having too much fun today,we ain't worried about tomarrow

yeaaaah buddy

yesterday was such a great way to start my summa', its crazy how like i reunited with old people & met so much new ones that might have a good effect on it. party last night was sooooooooooo great,i had so much fun. went with bree,britt,& dest, i swear we were high off life,dancing around like we were crazy & stuff. sorry to the boys i danced with,i know i sucked lmao.so fun. plus i birthed the new 'idgaf,im a gangsta' mentality. summers gonna' be greaaaat








ps,this is my jam lmao

Ice Cream Paint Job - Dorrough

snakes in the grass

you cant trust anybody these days,there drops some more.














the more friends in the wind,the colder the breeze

you kow that i can use somebody

its a guy,are you kidding me?

yesterday was too fun, went to the grovey with my peoples, dont feel like typing more,dosday went to the flea market & lunch with my peoples, supposed to go to the grove again tomarrow & hopefully see the hangover.






my summer started off great




you must take your chance.

im telling you,id rather be dead

omg this is great







speechless.

i would be you,you would be me

uno mas dia of escuela( i didnt know how to say 'of') lmao. anyways i know ive beeeen gone for dos long, but daddy computer has a broken battery & my mother finally bought new laptop chargers. last daay of culver. whoopie,its a bittersweet feeling,but i dont feel like simping, anyways its my brothers grad. today so i guess ill be there & his little shin dig after despite me having finals dosmarrow








SUMMER'S gonna' be great with all my peoples & hopefully meet a whole bunch of new ones 'cause some of my current ones seem to drama-prone, like i know were not in Hawaii, but hanglooooose broda'

byeeee

how to be a lady

June 04, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
It's time for change -- which has never been on your sign's top ten list of favorite things. That doesn't mean those changes will be unpleasant, but because it's really just the concept of change you object to, this could be a tough day. If you wake up feeling that things are already different, don't panic. You never know: This time out, it may all turn out wonderfully. In fact, if you can adapt, wonderful is a given.




:-*
'do not walk in front of me,for i may not follow. do not walk behind me,for i may not lead. just walk beside me & be my friend.'

she loves men,that can afford..

i wrote the deepest poem in 3rd period astronomy,i havent seen or written' to daddy poetry since like 8th gradeee,but heres a looksy. dest like'd it.

friendships come and go

cold & breezy like the wind

envious snakes seething through my grass

no gardeners there to tend.

theres no way to live in peace

in a place where peace no longer lives

no way the monster will seize

no luck for my unborn kids

we smile big on the outside,scared to live

frightened of fear

while the inside of us is long gone

killed by our insides drowned with tears

lie to yourself more than your lied to

live not through your heart but for what others minds want of you

unseen shackles on your weak little feet

no dancing around cause the drums here dont beat.

long sleeves cover the scars of war

with razor & hand

broken feet & bloody backlashes

no way to take stand.

big eyes but blurry vision,too blind to see

theres no easy escape

no way to be free.

we search for sunshine,sunshine

come this way

were scared & we need you

take the darkness away.

deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

& i have no idea wth im talking about lmao

hey there pretty girl

she just jealous 'cause you always get approached more.

oh well,tell her fallback :-p

stay with ya' till the end.

today was greeeeeeeat. i had so much fun with my boyfriend i love you man. ' police cars in jamaica are so bad,there like honda corollas' lmfao



ahahahaha
its toyota corolla,lmao i clearly dont love him for his smartss :-* ahahaha. had fun wrestling and playing tag with brianna,chris,tay,& marcus.now were making videos with mani & tay and simping to my paco





stay up like kanyeeeee'
:-*

strolling in the park,watching winter turn to spring

15 more days of school,omg im so excited. no schoool for me dosday,have to help get ready for my brothers champagne party. yesterday was bf's birthdaay,im older than paco lol.chubby lives inside now,he follows me around and eats my leftover chipotle,this kinda gets Billy mad,but he has to understand Billys still my number one. anywho todays gonna be short since my computers gonna die.








adios muchachos
barns burnt' down,now i can see the moon.

just remember i made you,like my night air.

allow me introduce my friend,his name is billy.hes imaginary lmao. dest gave me the idea from her imaginary friend bob. its really actually fun like telling people everything you and your imaginary friend do together. lol its like its really actually a person. what am i saying? billy is a person & i love him. he got my back like the back doooor. we and billy love this song,reminds me of my paco :-*

We Fight, We Love (Remix) - Q-Tip, Kanye West, Consequence

smooches fo' da' cooches!
'like a tattoo artist i get under her skin'

simpy sundays

------ SMS Text ------
From: daltyy
Sent: May 25, 2009 1:26 PM
Subject: Yes man,

Yes man, and im thankful for another chance & exactly you kinda sound smart lol but what do you mean when you say "its kinda of hard for me but whatever" & yes we sure did that's what mainly motivated me to get up & try again cause I was going down my "memory museum" and was like aye Mona Lisa come home you know I cant roam w/ chandler" lol but yeah man, you my life & I don't expect any other pieces to build you cause my puzzle is already built'_' & it gets me mad when you say "sorry I can't be what u want me to be daltonn"


Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile
'& girl oh girl,daddy's the greatest'

'i postpone death by...

living,by suffering,by error,by risking, by giving,by losing.'- anais niin

i think i want to talk about my relationship in todays entry boys and girls.lol. ive found that im happy even though my boyfriend made the dumbessssssssst mistakes,atleast hes aware of them & had an epiphany like kanye west 'wait a couple months then you gon' see,you'll never find nobody better then me'.lol. its crazy cause we go waaaay back & like i used to do him so dirt,i admit,so its like the karma gods came to get me back. lol. but if you didnt know me before you wouldnt know that right? exactly why my mother says never tell your friends your businessss.they dont have to know,like my baby john says lol. you make think im one of the typical weak minded girls,but like i sayss last blog

i dont care,lol
chandlers happy,go make your lifes happy little kiddies'
'more good women then men,percentage wise'

wont give 'em enough to love me for me.

g'morning sunshine even though theres no sunshine & the day looks mucho feo. me & mani had a really deep conversation yesterday and came to the conclusion of how hard life is & whats crazy is we are 15 & 16 years olds saying this. its seems like households are so communist,the society in a whole is communist. 'dont do this,do that,be friends with them,get good grades,dont wear that,dont like that'. i mean were not screwed up highschool soon to be dropouts. we do good in school try our best to be good people but little slipups and were just the bad people in town. & we've came to see the such uglyness in mother-son relationships these days. and us as the young underdogs have no say nowadays,just sit back & take it. go to school,get good grades,wear that,dont be friends with them,dont listen to that music, care about what people percieve you as, dont make me mad,dont be happy. for 2 more years until were finally free.


FIN.
'dont trust none of these people,wont give 'em enough to love me for me so,even when they welcome me into their kingdom,cant bring self to believe em'

ready for the good hurt

your such an ignoramus & i hope to never talk to you again. its my fault for letting people in my circle,you really cant trust anyone these days & ill i can do is be happy i found out this partially early in my life. people come and go. whatever. its just really not necessary to be a jerk. dont give me your input & way of living life,im living my own,but thanks. idiot.

"Little girl was the first reason to breathe
And the little man was the first man she believed in
She gotta live right and do right by self
She do for self she don’t want your help
Afraid of being alone
But fear aint enough to knock her off of that stone
Gonna make that home her home
with or without a man that she can call her own
big boss at work is anxious
continues to hand her the wrong advances
she passes the test
she knew the answers
quit the job to go take a chance
with life
this is life we all scream
while we pray for dollars and we work for change
its all the same, we all struggle
sometimes you gotta say fuck you
when you smile and she doesn’t return it
give her room and don’t disturb it
if it makes it hurt less to curse and fight
go ahead and hate the world girl you’ve earned the right "

-atmosphere 'dreamer'

your last ever blog entry,hope you enjoyed pissant.

peace sign up,index down!

the force both obeys & commands

idk about anything anymore. trust is just a word,nobodys really does it.people only look out for their best interest. i've chosen to befriend myself before anyone else 'cause noone really cares about chandler like chandler does. friends are enemies,enemies are enemies. nothing ever works out how you want it. i wish i could not care about anyone or anything but me being happy. i think im gonna' try so hard not to care 'till it finally comes naturally.







whatever,bye.

molly cool

May 15, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
Avoid anything that looks, smells, or even sounds like a power struggle today. You just won't have the patience to outlast the big egos that are itching for a fight right now. These folks are not above playing dirty, and you don't want to end up in the mud -- you have better things to do. While you have a great talent for peacemaking, why waste it on a person or group that is so happy to fight? There is no point in getting involved unless someone asks for a compromise.






before you leave molly let me kiss that tattoo on your ankle.
:-*

pretty dark disturbing things.

great weekend.


May 10, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
You have a big karmic payback coming your way today, so expect some interesting rewards for all the good deeds you have performed recently. This will be an educational and enriching day, and it will teach you many valuable lessons about how to win people over to your cause -- without sending them on a big guilt trip. You are learning more about how to use your charm to get ahead in your career prospects, and it is already starting to pay off.



:-*
ps i know ive had the song forever but its so beautiful that i cant bring myself to change it,just dont press the play button it you dont like it.

can we get on the same team here?

my birthday was pretty great,went to school got a sign and some ding dongs from dest,a picture frame with i drawing i made for raoul in 9th grade:). waited for my brother to pick me up and was surprised that malika,ashika,& my baby ahmani were in the car. came home made a hot dog,searched for what i was gonna' wear for a million or so hours.got in the car,drove to maggianos met my father,little brother,& step mom. 5 minutes later dalton,marcus,ey tay tay and dest come. fun,fun,fun. i got a juicy peace sign necklace from my beefrienddd:-* & my mother got me a peace sign bathing suit to 'go with the tattoo'...hardy har har. ey tay tay got me a pretty little elephant necklace,ahmanis paying for my jet rags thi$ weekend,more importantly dest is getting my red red. not for the hood but whatever i want them so bad. im currently watching forgetting sarah marshal with mani & tay so im done typing.


adios papi chulos
:-*

aged to perfection

i havent really wrote in awhile which like made my brain backed up with stuff i could write about but my fingers and brain are having technical difficulties since my brizain wants me to type but my fingers are lazy bastards. it really just dawned on me that schools almost over,right when everyone starts fighting and school starts getting exciting.fight today at nutrition was hilarious.too bad. im ready for summer school to hang out with my main homies everyday until we get tired of eachother and the hotness where we drown in like our own sweat. i wonder what this summers song is gonna' be,last summers was i got a story to tell-biggie.LOVE IT paco's.i think right now im just talking to talk 'cause i want this entry to be all lonnnnnng. in my head in class i kept thinking about forgetting sarah marshall when that fat guy from superbad was like "so yeah man did you get a chance to listen to my mix tape?" or whatever and the british porn star guy was like " i was gonna' listen to it, but then i just continued on with my life".lmao. i like dattttttttt'.




-we outta' here babyyyyy
(idk why i keep saying that)

lucky ducky,no hands on action for you.

April 30, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
'Mutual respect' may feel like an endangered phenomenon today when you are forced to deal with someone who thinks using arrogance is a great way to impress someone. Luckily, the encounter will be fairly brief. You can try to teach them how to be more down to earth if you really want to, but it might be much more amusing if you just let them behave the way they want to behave and just walk away, laughing. They'll learn their lesson eventually -- without your help.

since the dawn on the beautiful

kid cudi shows that even people with big heads can be beautiful.













:-*

every drop counts.

omg im bored out of my minddddddd.madres in vega$,idk where my brother is,cats on my nap,and my cpk pizza is on the counter since the suckass over wont hurry up & preheat.booo. my day was whatever,it was cold,had twenty minute classes in which i did NO homework for. compton community college heress' i comess'. i just watch miley (cyrus) & mandy youtube shows for an hour and i must say im on team cyrus cause this selena character seems like a b*tch. andrew just aimed me & said he's coming ove,yay some excitement.







peace papi's

deadly daydreams

ive beeen sooooooo slacking,i dont know why its not like ima' 9-5 working busy person. im just lazy,actually too lazy to think of what i wanted to write,so i guesss thats it,took me like a week for 3 sentences.dont judge me.












peace paco's

drop one,pick up some more

burfdays in 2 weeks and 3 days!

April 19, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
There has been one too many misunderstandings going on in your social life lately, and it could be holding you back from getting closer to someone. You have two choices today: You can either get face-to-face with the person who is confusing you and finally get to the bottom of things, or you can move on to a different set of social partners for a while. Keep in mind that there is nothing wrong with taking a break from people who are rubbing you the wrong way.



preach.

and slit both wrists backstage.

im depressed.

spring break,take your shirt off

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uck you for trying..

you've been wonderful?

sheesh i've been so slacking on the entires.i've been way tooo lazy,only mentally 'cause physically ive been getting my work out's in everynight. summers coming up and i cling to the notion of having cassies body. hopefully not too impossible. anywho schools been boring,no surprise there.but my weekends have been way fun so summers gonna' be waaaaaaaaaaay great.hopefully. idk if i want to o to summer school or what,my mom wants me to go to some college going away thing which is cool as long as i get a jobby$$. plus she brightened my life with the words "dont tell your brother,but i was thinking in a few months i'll get you a little mini cooper".if you know me,you know how obssesed i am with mimi coopers,cutest things in life,im doing online drivers ed as i type)taking a break),but i shall soon be cruising and making my disliky's look so bad .sheesh,my future life.:)

and vice versa

reminds me of kanye west 'paranoid',but eh.me likey

Lets Call It Off (feat. Peter Bjorn & John) - Drake

you can do it tiger

congrats to mister garcia,1st place on 50 backstroke thingy & 3rd place on his 100 free thingy.sorry i couldnt be there.next time ill be there with a sign and a spray painted shirt that says "other swimmers dont be a fool,the winners gonna' be raoul" i made that up just now.lol. mister garcia in his little spankies,i can already see it now

trying to spell your name

@#$!,tell me mondays are the best days in life,tell me the people at culver dont majorly suck,tell me i dont make the worst spelling errors in my blog posts',tell me that schools almost over and i can make it through.three more months.
:(.

next year possiblity?

let whoever like me,follow me

sundays are so blah,so lets recap my weekend

friday beautiful ahmani accompanied me to the taft-westchester game,i personally could two beaver dams about either school but ahmani's all basketball fanatic now,so eh.had fun took some gangster pictures;saw some nice faces,watched taft lose while drinking sprite out of red vines
saturday grove'd it with ahmani & destiny,split the BEST chipotle burrito with ahmani.saw my babys taylor & brianna,met up with mai & theeen me,dest,mani,& mai had the best time dancing our ass's off in the 3D-Jonas Brothers Experience movie thing.fun,fun,fun.

& now for sunday im watching keeping up with the kardashians,waiting for my chip-ah-tel
i'll probably make another post today,but adios for now
:)

relapse

apologogies for the such lacking of blog entries,i'll step my game up sooon,but for now,read it & weep just incase it persays(is that how you spell it?)to you



Taurus (4/20-5/20)
There is no reason for you to be in a hurry to get anywhere right now, no matter what someone else is telling you. So take all the time you need and make no apologies for it! You have the right to do the amount of research that makes you feel good about your decision. And the more you can map out your plan of action in detail, the better things will go for you. Tell all the people who are pushing you that they are wasting their time. Assert yourself and stand your ground.

armpit rash?

Taurus (4/20-5/20)
Your new-found happiness can bring joy to a lot of other people today. They appreciate this good news almost as much as you do, you know! So spread the good word and let everyone in on what has been making you smile lately. You'll be amazed at how supportive they will be. Reaching out to other people like this connects you more closely to them -- and it ensures that there will always be someone there to reach out and share happiness with you some day.








ps hey raoul,my faithful blog reader:)
uploading pics when i feel like it
adios :-*

bet you think this blog is about you..

its NOT

hey you,come here

my life is going so beyond downhill lmao,i really need to stop feeding peoples minds with information they want to hear. im way sure i wouldnt be in the position im in right now. lol i've alrady been called a 'tease'. i cant stop its like an addiction & im making people happy,im just adding a hint of lies. but yeah i need to stop cause i might have dug a hole too deep. man oh man lol.i tend to laugh when things are going way bad ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.see? i wish i had the little remote on click,but like it had a delete button so i could delete all the assholes i've encountered in my life and rewind and redo everything that had a bad outcome. like now.bad bad bad outcome.me and my positive 'tell 'em what they wanna' hear' mouth.smh




adios,
chandler

silent sundaaaays

my weeekend was pretty goood. friday i got hair done which was much needed & saturday i did the saame thing i did almost everyweekend.if you guessed grove than you guessed right. it was actually fun i went with my ahmani daniels.we sang everything we had to say to eachother,told the man in johnny rockets we were girlfriends,encountered a ghost in the upstairs nordstrom bathroom,met up wit mai and her friends,went into forever21 & tried on ugly glasses in which we asked innocent bystanders if they looked right on us (hilarious ho much strangers like to be nice),than we sat on the top floor on the movie theater and talked about (ahmani even tried to do) ghetto dances like the 'reject'.
fun.
fun.
fun.
today were hopefully going to the $ sale to re-up lmao. oh! and i have the found the bobby to my brizown:)

dueces,
chandler:-*

we think your a joke

word is theres a new atmosphere album eh? im excited i listen to their playlist on imeem for hiz-ours (202 songs playa). i love their lyrics like they actually say something,well not like say something but mean something lol. i hate when people have their songs/lyrics on their pages or aways or whatever.makes me mad,but hey the more fans the better fools.

Never tell 'em what inspires you
I bet my fans know me better than my friends do
Because my friends don't pay that much attention
The fans memorize every single sentence
Which makes them far too smart to ever start a friendship
I need to start writing pieces about other people's problems
'Cause strangers are starting to get worried
I'm in a hurry to try to slow the system down a bit
And find happiness before I hit thirty
OK, OK, I've said too much

-"It Goes"
ahhhhh,i love it daddys:)




:-*,
chandler

it goes

my computers being a schmuck,strawberry fruit snacks are the greaaatest.culvers not.i think of all these things during the day i want to write but as soon as i press 'new post' or whatever my mind goes blank.mind,you suck.lol. im " one of the most laziest people" known by people like my mom and brother. what a nice way to make me feel good. like im not a teenager with bipolar emotions that would laugh life away one second then be carving my wrist the next.kidding. just trying to make a point,watch what you day daddy-o's annnnnnnnnnnnd chandler,take your own advice lol
i had a perfect little layout for todays post with little pictures to entertain your minds and everything but my computers' acting like an ass.booooo computer!


lovely video eh?,
chandler:-*

prove yourself..

my problems
-telling people what the want to hear
-being way to good of a lier
-not trying hard enough
-neglection (lol)
-not thinking of the future which leads to dumb mistakes
-caring for the things i shouldnt & not caring for the things i should
-being too hard on myself
-not being hard enough on myself

i have way to many problems,tat i dont care to fix.eh hate me,whatever. my weekend was way to greaaaaaaat.a weekend to remember ill tell you that.i love the people in my life,well most i guess.its crazy cause some people i know,i wouldnt lose a second of daydreaming if i never saw them again. ehh call me a pessimist. i noticed i daydream alot. then people think i have staring problems lol, i DONT im not looking at you! im having beautiful thoughts lol.my phone keeps freezing.its making me mad,they should change its name to suckberry. justin nozuka is such a great singer :) btw i've decided to sale my cate,shes been urking my nerves lately,so if your interested ;) lol




:-*,
chandler

make the love,paint the picture..

today was way to cold. all the people i dont like must have teamed up and cut open there chest and bam revealed their hearts which caused the such bitter coldness. lol,that sucked. im pretty bored,just sitting on my bed looking at silver bullet( my cats,names nice right?) and listening to 'woman with the tattooed hands' by atmosphere. i cant wait till this school years over,pretty weird but i really want to go to a little private school,with little private school friends,my car,and my job. my life would be so made.i'll just live this sucky life till then







smh.
bye

trying to find a balance..

hoela papi's. i had a pretty great weekend, chilled with the main peeeps. ive came across a problem i seem to have with making people 'feel used' or 'left out'.idk,im not the type of person to 'use' people id rather just use the toilet or be alone. i dont take advantage of people or situations,i just dont see myself as that type of person.i guess i couldnt have more than one kid cause one of them would have a suck ass relationship with me.

anyways im sorry if i've made anyone feel this way,i dont really like disappointing you.




ps.pay no regaurds to this if i dont like you.
peaceee:)

who gives a ..

such bipolar freakin' weather fooools,the sun was good and the rain was beautiful. i like how quick these weeks are going since culver and its little inhabitators SUCK HORSE DONG. lol i like my use of words there. soon ill be driving,then going to prom with a thug, then going to college,then getting married and having a son named either Niko or Chase
oh
wait
no im not since the world decides to end at the peak of my life!
lol,i can see myself commiting like suicide cause id be so scared and then like the whole 2012 thing not even happen...but anywho peep the website,the whole idea of it made me piss myself




http://www.survive2012.com/


peace daddys:-*

taking over

day was pretty good.only went to periods 1 and 6. it was hot. field trip to kirk douglas theater. play called taking over. was pretty good. walk was hot. random girl crying over shakeys? interracial use of he word 'nigga'. it was hot.learned some life changing news. watch those cherries:).be hot.





peaceeee daddy

heeeyyy, my blogspot cherry has just popped(:




ilyyy cuhh




love, Destiny


(i dont tell life stories like mrs stephens over here but i will back soon mwwuaaah)

always coming back home to you..

my weeekend wasnt so majorly sucky, ive actually had alot of insight and smart stuff like that lol. humans are like little toys that love to make eachother happy then make them want to commit a homi/suicide. sucks. anyways its a pretty day so go out and play cause the man want us to be obese, and we cant make the man happy.

No matter where I am, no matter what I do

I'm always coming back home to you

They can leave me for dead they can take away my true

I'm always coming back home to you

Through the lies and the sins that ride the wind that blew

I'm always coming back home to you

As sure as the life in the garden that you grew

I'm always coming back home to you

No matter where I am, no matter what I do

I'm always coming back home to you

If only I had known what you already knew

I'm always coming back home to you

From the heaven I've had to the hell

I been through

I'm always coming back home to you

-atmosphere

Ps: i got nooooo driving love what-so-eveeerr:(

,lola manolia

dreams are the work of monsters

i woke up way too happy, dont know why maybe im just a happy person. LIES. lol well for the most part i am. dont step on my toes and i wont step on yours ( whatever that means). anywho fooool im off to my padres casa for the weekend ranchosuckcucamonga. but i gets mondo driving loveeeee out there which is great since of our desperation to ditch paying people gas $ and public transportation. anywhooo watch the video,made me laugh (not a hard job to do,but hey lol)

peacee fooools,
lola magnolia

welcome to you pretty

day uno'. whoooo im too excited too finally make one of these,now we can bash allllll the people we hate without them ever knowing:) kidding. this is just to share our thoughts and stuff (even if you guys dont care,it makes us feel important). maybeee i should give a little introduction


were two bestfriends (dont ask how long, we goes' wayy back);we love food,but were trying this new diet i think its called anorexia?;were in highschoool with all the drama mama's (we've been trying to edge ourselves away from that scene).....wait no we havent lol, but hey maybe we like the controversy;)




anywho,im tired of typing,peace fooools
PS. im already sure this blog is no longer anonymous lol