ive been abusing my substance.

hey guys,i scraped my knees sooo bad & i just put alcohol & neosporin on them & its burning so bad at this very second as im typing this sentence. i know that lacks importance to you,but i just needed to let you know lol. my lifes' pretty good i feel like if you slow down every know & then, you have the time to think & really take in everything going for you in your life. i personally feel i have a lot going for me, good family, boyfriend, friends, & head on my shoulders (sometimes lol). i thinks 'the gods' that are watching me, are trying to let me know its time to grow up & do stuff with me. ive been writing poetry again, & i love it. im just sitting back & loving life, lets see how much longer this lasts.





now,is that so hard?

your my bestfriend,thanks for listening.

i was reading my def poetry jam book & one of the poets (Suheir Hammad) wrote a greaaaat poem called 'on the brink' or something of that nature lol. but yeah it was based on this peace protester named Rachel Corrie, its crazy how confused i was when i first read it, but like the fourth time i read it i started to get it. dudee this lady was a peace protester like i said & she was like gaurding a house cause like the palestinian soldiers were trying to bulldoze it so they can like hide bombs there or something. its crazy cause theres a picture of her clearly in front of the bulldozer & the next picture shes crushed on the ground. tell me thats not the most horrible thing ever. you can look up the pictures here www.electronicintifada. org

'something like ten Palestinians have been killed since

yesterday,when a Caterpillar bulldozer driven

by a man demolished the home that was her body.

if anyone knows her family,please relay

to them my grief & my sorry.'

rest in paradise Rachel Corrie

bye :-*

just hold me & pretend that you've known me forever

hey guys, i haveent beeen on for awhile. i actually wanted to make an entry about eminems comeback & how much mariah carey is a douche & nick cannons obvious retardedness for saying 'his wifes new video has nothing to do with eminem' when its so obvious. but i dont feel like talking about that. schools cool,i feel like im panicing cause i can feel school coming back so fast but its fine, the quckier it comes the quicker it goes. people think im stupid for wanting to be 18 so badly cause of the 'responsiblities' but yeah idk,i just gotta keep doing my job in school & get my gradess so i can kanye west 'you cant tell me nothing'.

oh i got a new doggie,hes a yorkie & his name is scrappy, him & chubs get along well ,the both slept in my bed last night. i woke up at like 3;20 to some size varied poop, so i guess they not only sleep together but have their bual movments together. anyways there sitting on my bed watching me type this.

but yeah,dont really have much more to talk about,ill catch you crazy cats later

'i would take you with me too

i know your family still mourns

i know your fans still cry

but they muct now that you' a real star

& real stars belong to the sky.'

adios :-*

you were gone before i found you

what is up? today is destinys birthday,'i donnntt want no cake on my birthday' lol, anywho's summer schools blah,seems like the days are going to fast. i dont even know why i wasted time making this entry cause i have not a beava' dam thing interesting to say







& the turn table keeps on turnin' & turnin' nothing caan f*ck with the way it goes around'
holllaaaaaaaa'

mansion with a panoramic view for those who ant get to the top.

hey, first week of summer school is over,the most emotional week ever. were half way through '09,thats crazy, in a year & a half ill be graduating. time flies by man. this weekend was cool,dests bickback,fun.went swimming today with my homies,fun. i love my bf, fun. ahmani keeps talking, fun. summer school tomarrow,fun.







im outta' here

i'd never do that to you,atleast purposely

dude,i love poetry but omg tell me this is not the most annoying poem ever?!







suck.

beautiful is how we know ya' though

summa' school kinda' sucks.

July 06, 2009
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
You're the most sensual sign out there, and you know it. So when you become aware that you're especially 'in the mood,' (like you'll be when you wake up this morning) there's just not going to be any stopping you -- and no stopping your partner from giggling in delighted anticipation. In the meantime, get through the day and impress everyone with how meticulous you're being. There's no question you'll enjoy the evening.

my horoscope today kinda' sucks

The moon is full, you can't fake that light

No room to move, nah the space got tight

don't need no knife here, we break up fights

Put your good shoes on, get your make-up right

And the ladies in the pla-pla-place so fly

Make you want to go home and wake up your wife

And I like it right, could never hate my life

In fact I'm quite excited, I get to play tonight

atmosphere doesnt.

night :-*

im bettter of alone

i hate arguing & going to sleep mad 'cause i swear when you wake up it feels 10x's worse. well he made me feel good this morning so this is for him






:-*

little older,little wiser

woke up quick,at about noon just thought that i had to leave compton soon? lol my yesterday was great, my last night was partially annoying. we got the chubster groomed & he has a little mohawk,so cute. hes just sitting at the edge of my couch watching me type. thats love right there. im just now realizing that in one day, ill go back to waking up early. omg if that doesnt suck. but yeah i have this great def poetry book, cause im an addict & it has great work. let me spit a little something fo' you.

'even now lover as we lay

in amazement & if baby

as you say my skin is the color of sun warmed

sand then you're my moonless night

and we the beach wet tidal

all that good ssshhhhh

wet yet as we lay'

-suheir

beautiful,& i love this song i swear it feels like summer

Use Somebody - Kings Of Leon

no enemies that your aware of?

"there just usin' these record labels

to do it.

takin' our heartfelt demos

putting us in limos

tryin' to f*ck up divine direction

but

young black men have been trained

to chase money and

pu**y

so we fall

victim to our own erection"

-black ice

run to the sun & neva' come back

all's well in the neighborhood,i have to add this video,' cause im kinda feeling its message.







man,why cant life always be this easy