love,live life, pro-ceed,pro-gress.

sitting here doing these college apps,so overwhelming..cant wait til im done and just waiting to see what schools i got into..im kinda nervous, cause knowing me, i slipped up and messed up on one of my apps, and everyone makes mistakes seem so CRUCIAL...the main college i see myself attending is ASU, and it baffles me that im spending hundreds of $$ to send apps to schools i wouldnt look twice at if i did get into ASU *knocks on wood*...i know ASU isnt too hard to get into, but watch me be that one person who wants to get in soooooo bad, has gooood grades, and doesnt get in =/..bleh. anyways its thanksgiving break, im have so much AP homework, so its really hectic, hopefully it'll all pay off next week at Winterfresh, if my mother gives me my $ for my ticket tomarrow like she promised,and its not sold out, with my luck, *knocks on wook again*....im in NEED of a computer..my oms business computers are trying to kill me by blocking all the websites i need...good thing chirstmas is close



happy holdays <3

because,this is for all my..

i just saw For Colored girls,it was kind of too deep for me..i probably sound ignorant but whatever..this weekend was good :) im sure ill have more to talk about tomarrow,since it shall be a VERY interesting day..have some business to handle.. try to be nice to people, and sometimes it just bites you in the back, but its fine,ill still continue to be nice to ensure that any foul feelings against me arent my fault. im a firm beleiever in karma, but this time, im gonna have to speed things up myself,we'll see how it turns out...but on a happy note, im going to the gay club wed.! im excited but ill be more enthusiastic once tomarrows handled.....business before pleasure.


this song is sick.

I know, I know, I look better in real life.

ugh, im so sad,i misssss writing on my blog :( when i get my new computer for christmas ill be back ( i know, i always have problems with my computer) lol. buttttt life has been great for me, school is blah', im so overwhelmed with college apps, but CANT i repeat CANT wait to finally be a college student. actually, i just cant wait til this summer coming up, im sure its going to be greatttt since ill be 18, and all the best events are 18+ now =/. canntttt waiiiittt til Rock the Bells again, *sigh*, pure heaven...and me and 'mani will be prepared for the 100+ weather this time :)im so excited. But this summr ive discovered club life, and been loving it ever since lol. i plan on going to the gay club next week :) but i feel really good right now lol..im always like that, happy for no reason..im weird lol. but yeahhh life is gooood, ive been chillin' with my two bestfriends dest' and 'mani..less drama, plus we alwaysssss have fun together, i love them,lol. im so simpy..probably time for a bf....kid cudi where ya at? ;)



I WILL BE AT TARGET FIRST THING NOV. 9th :-*

i have fallen' in love

Psalm 23

...Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

everybody knows ima' motha'****in' monster

havent wrote in awhile, i dont know why,its not like ive been busy,sine i havent been doing ANYTHING. but this summers pretty blah', i guess i had too many high expectatations for it, but its cool, im ready to get this senior year crackin' & get this college life started, i cannott wait. but hmm, whats new....i meeeeet so many new people this summer(boys specifically) so im proud of that :), got my ear pierced, got my jays lol, life is going pretty good, just going with the flow of things is relaxin' but, i am stressin abt this APliterature homework since i havent started :( but bye for now.

to whom much is givin',much is expected

so,im currently at the University of Redlands, for College Summit. today is the last day so were all in the library finishing up our personal statements. were here with about 40 students, its Fairfax & Inglewood. the first day was so overwhelming, because our schedules are so jammed packed, but our last days, we've all gotten close and were having alotta' fun. ive made sooo many friends, im happy :) ima' miss it but i miss LA and being turnt up with my brodies lol. the whole college experience was both great and overwhelming since it seems to be coming soooo quickly. i dont know what my mom & the rickster are gona' do when im in college, they've been texting me non- stop lol, they miss me lol. but this was a GREAT oppurtunity and im proud i've takin advantage of it...







bak to LA!

olesdoit

english and computer final over, only 4 more to go, than im wildin' out! summmma summa' summa' summaa' summma', time to re-up on some dimes,lmao











foreal though.

she the type a girl that a n*gga like.

im in my computer class, bored af. we have a sub, so im on the internet lol. only 3 more weeks of school and we have a 4 day weekend, ohlesdooooittttt! lol.i cant wait till summer mane, i can feel it, so its such a tease. this by far is gonne be my best summer since im whippin'..smh, the kids in my class are bumpin' "swag surf", life with subs it funny. but yeah i havennt been on in awhile. i did a interview for my psych class, and i made me reaaly wanna get into therapy as a career. NEED a job this summer first. but OMG i told Tay yesterday, i finally understand the saying 'pimpin aint easy' cause its not at all, probably time for me to retire my player ways...











not.

sometimes you gotta' give in to win..

im so happy today, lol i love the weather & my birthday's friday & prom is next weekend, allllll theeee waaay turrrrntt uppp!... 'mani texted me this morning something like " goodmorning my magnificent beautiful butterfly" lmao, we so gay, i love her man, but yeah, hope this week remains happy & joyful










peace up'
A-town down

i gotta' be on my own this time

somp, im in life skills, my teacher tried to ball us & say that the internet was cut off so dont bother going lol, mine isnttt :-p. but anyways were making a 'brag sheet' for my resume, boring. but this weekend was festive. ahahaha, i dont mean to seem like a pessimistic in my posts, i feel like im too negative on it, but this is were i vent, so sorry, like atmospheres song "i bet my fans know me better then my fans do, because my friends dont pay that much attention to me, the fans memorize every single sentence, which makes them far to smart to ever start a relationship"? or something like that. but yeah my 'friends' suck,lmao seriously. like having a car just made it more visually obvious. so yeah, i know i say this alot, but im doing me, forget them, i got my handful of closeys & my bro's, but like really though, why hang with a bunch of girls, when i can be with the opposite sex, lmao






:-*

the $'s what moves me

i dont feel good, & its my first day driving to school & people already mad i wont drive them places














-_-.

or a caramel Queen.

im in lifeskills again-_-, my teacher made some type of pineapple cake, for what reason? im not sure, but it looks like throw up but its actually reaaallly good. but yeah its freezing outside & i have on a dress, its my fault though, i was tired of being cold and ugly, so i sacrificed my warmth..but omg the most annoying thing ever is this girl comes to school with a tat just like my angel wings -_-, like come on thats foul man lmaooo. but yeah im listening to justin timberlake- till the end of time, such a beautiful song :), i would nod my head but i got too many fans in this class so im self concious lmfao, speaking of that ive been doing so great in my psychology college class, im proud of myself. i really love it like im considering becoming a therapist because of it. but yeah im jus yappin'





peace :-*

lets describe a certain meaning...

im in my likeskills class -_-. im listening to b*tches&sisters by Jay-z (thats where the title comes from) boreed. we do so much little kid type stuff, but i like that we get to use the computers all the time, since mr rogers sucks. anyways my birthdays in 2 weeks, dont really wanna' do anything but go to the spa, get all pampered & all that. but yeah i was with ahmani last night, i miss her mane. shes like my buffer when everyone else is driving me crazy. if only she wasnt the next Lisa Leslie, we could hang more, but yo goo girrl,lol. im bored & have nothing else i want to type, so






bye :-*

her beauty is its own color.

school sucks, this song doesnt.






:-*

here comes the big guy

I am in my computer class now, bored. i had a reallllly cool weekend. went to a party friday with all my girls, minus T-loc & Nay :-/, its cool were gonna all reunite this weekend hopefully. Im taking my drivers test Wed, idk how thats gonna work out but i just hope to pass. I've been successfully working on my re-up with these boys out heree. I think its smart to keep themin rotation for now, and not necesscarily give too much feelings until im sure. People keep calling me a player, but you have to be these days. I am a product of you boys! lol. but yeah im happy, content with how everythings going in my life. the periods almost ovet & im not really saying anything interesting, so i should probably stop typing.




byee :-*

only god can judge me, who the f*ck is you?

lol, ghetto title, but yah there was an earthquake today, soo crazy. i was calling my moms name & she ignored me cause she was on the phone, smh, that can scar me for life lmao. but yeah i had the greatest night last night and im sooo excited for summer, cause im already knowing this spring break was a prelude to it. i was whipppin' even though i didnt get my license yet ( my mom didnt take off work, so i missed my test) but i got a new mother-daughter tat, which is currently only daughter tat ( my fault) lol. all my friends are slowly coming together which is perfect. my mom loves my confidence level, i told her kanye west is my idol (chanye) lol. but i took a trip to San Francisco,its beautiful, bt annoyingly cold & if i was to live out there id probably be fat & depressed from staying inside all day lol. ow i had soooo much fun last night lmao, my girls & i were 'alllll theee wayy turrntt up' lol. but yeah great great spring break, probably time to clean & start my 5-page Psych essay -_-



:-*

we live?

lol, i just made that my title 'cause Ray just said it, im in computer class and were talking abt ugly people & how they have to be with it & relationships & so on. my last post was messed up, but i dont wanna delete it, i dont know what else to say. oh yeah i went to lighthouse last period, it was all emotional, i wanted to talk but i felt like everyone had worse prblems then my fake friendships & relationships. i realized i have yet to post my poem & i wrote another one, but there too long & im too lazy to type then, & plus my brother always has the computer -_-. lol were talking abt funny stuff. blah blah blah. i dont know what else to talk abt

everything tht shines ain't always gonna' be gold

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& i made myself so easy to love

wessssst up? im so happy lol. ive been happy since wed. for some odd reason. i guess i feel like life is pulling together for me. i got all my friends close to me again & that makes me happy. i dont like living in 'disharmony' as my personaility quiz says. But yeah i've been chillin', maybe wildin' whatever i just like to have fun. i cant wait till this class is over. actually i cant wait till school is over, this summer should be the best so far. So, i failed my drivers test lmao, my lady was a b*aaatccch, my brother said she failed me cause she was ugly lmao. Speaking of the topic, i like all the postitive feedback & compliments i have been getting from my peers and friends. Lets hope a big head is not the product of it. i LOVE the loveee lmao. but yeah, so wassup? lmao im just talking cause my history teacher gave us a project that im sure he doesnt even know how to do, 'cause it makes NO sense. but yeah blog, i'll see youu



:-*

restore my happiness

bye.

& ima' die with my eyes open

this is really one of jay-z's best verse's

& if you dont believe me,than leave me be

hey,lol, im sitting on my bed listening to atmosphere, kinda' tired. wish i was at tays :-/ but i have an SAT in the morning, so ill just go tomarrow. but yeah anyways my life is basically starting from scratch. new semester, hopefully new car, new missions, new relationships. im not bragging at all lol, the worse thing is starting over, but yeah im young, i just gotta make the best of it. i loveeeeeee atmosphere i swear hes make me feel so much better. break ups are hard at night when your all simpy lmao. but yeah im pretty good so far, just gonna keep myself busy, work on myself cause ive been kinda slacky these last two weeks. i just made my appt for my drivers test,i was nervous typing lmao. bt yeah im just taking life day by day. i getthe feeling people are saying/thinking im changing, bt honestly things/people get old after awhile. time to be on some new shtt



bye :-*

but in the end were all the same.

hey, i havent wrotee in awhileee. still havent got my new computer-_-, but yeah im listening to 'i see now' by little brother. idk why i said that. but anyways woaah life is too brazy right now. its like im soo close to getting my license & second even semester that im so anxious just for that to ease my life lol. but yeah everything thing tends to be getting old to me now. its crazy i dont even do it on purpose but of course my complicated mind likes to complicate my life lol. lifes so complicated. that sentence was soo repetitive 'cause i had to make sure you felt my pain lol. idk what to do & in the movie The Women, which i loveeeeee, the mother said "a wise man once said,when you dont know what to do,do nothing so thats what im doing lol. waiting for life to work out itself,ill tell you if it works



adios :-*

evils wobble but they dont fall down

:-*

who can love you like this?

hey, i havent been able to update, my mom jst got her comp fixed which is good, my brother got a new laptop -_-, my mom says mines being ordered bt we'll see how long that takes. anyways my new years wasss REALLY eventful, lmao i looked cute which is all that matters. but anyways not much to talk about. im not gonna sit up & act like this year im gonna change cause im sure i changed the most in 2009, 2010 should just bring better grades(since im dropping trDEVILigonometry), new activities (probably dance team) & more importantly A CAR!(license in feb.) sheesh ill be 17 & a senior this year..next year a college freshman, can youu believe it? slow down time your moving too fast. anyways just gonna' spend my night fixing up my blog & watching some youtube def poetry




night :-*